Simple Solutions

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Sometimes simple solutions are so incredibly simple, that we fail to see them until we trip over them!!

A while ago I was trying to improve my car so to make it accelerate faster and run in a more sporty way. After analyzing many possibilities, each one with its corresponding cost in money and time consuming work, finally, out of nowhere, I decide to move the driver seat one click forward, and the vehicle changed completely its reactions!!

At first I was puzzled why the car seemed to accelerate faster and run more sporty-like than before, until I realized the reason was that my right foot was closer to the accelerator and brake pedals, which made me push both pedals farther than before, extracting more acceleration time (and harder) and more (and also harder) braking action.

With this, the car didn’t change a bit, but I was using a wider range of both acceleration and braking power, making the car go in a more sporty way. Problem solved!!

It didn’t cost me a single cent, and I avoided having to spend time working in this car, which was great because the other cars also need attention!

It is just amazing sometimes how the simplest solutions are the best, and how many times we fail to see them, until we trip on them! I can’t deny after this I felt pretty stupid!! LOL

Raul

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Happy New Year!!

2014-12-31  Happy New Year!!

 

Happy New Year!!

May all your plans and projects become a reality in this 2015!!

With all my good wishes to you!!

 

Raul
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Aspie World 15 – The End of a Cycle

2014-12-29  Aspie World  15 - The End of a Cycle

It was so strange the whole situation and my own feelings about it. I started that job three years ago when they opened the weekend shift. It was a new shift running Friday, Saturday and Sunday from 4 pm to 4 am. Twelve hours shift three days in a row to complete 36 hours. It was a full time and they paid a differential over the hourly rate to complete the equivalent of 40 hours, so basically it was a full time job done in three days a week, leaving four days off. I loved it!! I dedicated three days to just work for the money, and had four days to do the things I really want to do.

For me it was like leaving my life in stand by for those three days, but then I had four days to live intensely doing what I love, together with my obligations as a family man.

For an Aspie like me, having the permanent problem of socialization, working just three days and having four free days was a perfect combination of filling my duties as a citizen renting a space in society with living my isolation my own way. I just had to leave my life in stand by for only three days, but in exchange I got four days for my Aspie life!! Perfect!!

But all the good things have to come to an end. The company decided they prefer to move all the shifts to a five days, 8 hours shifts and simply cancel all the weekend shifts!! Now I will be working Monday to Friday from 6 am to 2:30 pm. 8 hours a day, five days a week, and have off Saturday and Sunday.

I hate it!!

But I am an Aspie; I will try to turn a defeat into a victory! I’ve already been planning how can I use the days after work, so instead of dividing my stand by time and free time into days, I will divided into hours. Mornings stand by, afternoons free. I don’t know if it’ll work, but I’ll try.

The thing is, I started this job when the weekend shift started, and today was the last day of this weekend shift, so when we finished working for the day, we finished a complete three years stage.

The stress this job gave me was what gave me Fibromyalgia, so thanks to this job I’m screwed for life, and even though I thought of suicide at some point, today I left the facilities crying!!

How come?

In some way, I witnessed the start and the end of a complete cycle; I participated in it; I suffered stress to the point of acquiring Fibromyalgia. But also I met lots of people and some of them I came to care about and appreciate.

When the shift ended I gave some hugs and some strong hand shakes; I wished them the best and received best wishes too. I was holding my tears and finally had to quickly leave, so to find myself alone in the parking lot, free to cry!!

This is the first time in my Aspie life that I cry after finishing a job!! I was honestly sad for loosing the weekend shift, but most important, for loosing the people I met, got to know and appreciate. I will miss them!!

You see, what a normal person get to accomplish in one day when starting a new job, meaning by that getting to know the others, their names and faces, and placing themselves in a group, for me it takes about a year!! What they do in one day for me it takes me a year!! After three years there I was in a position like for a normal person takes three days. After three years I still didn’t know the names of some of them, and still haven’t talked to everyone!! So you can see how important is for an Aspie every single relationship developed!!

Normal people get friends, fight, befriend another, etc, all in a matter of weeks, so how important is each individual they get to know doesn’t have the same level of importance it has for an Aspie. With the proportion of one day for a normal person equals one year for an Aspie, an Aspie get to know in his/her entire life a similar amount of people a normal person can get to know in two months!! So each single person an Aspie get to know becomes really important! I was there three years and met some people and got to appreciate a few of them…now they are gone!!

For normal people, they hug, cry and give best wishes, but just a week after starting the new shift they will have new friends and will be getting together after work and being best friends, until they fight and find new friends and so on. For me it’ll take me like seven years to reach the point they reach in one week!!

So I was sad for the loss!!

Someone might think if I did get their phone numbers to keep contact… no I didn’t; why? Because what they mean for me is not the same what I mean for them. They are normal people; they move on. It’s easy for them to do that; I can’t. They move on; I loose. I don’t have the socialization software in my brain like they do.

It was a sad day for me. One year for one day. Start all over again from zero. I cried, and now I write to get it out of my chest. Tomorrow will be a new day and a new beginning.

That’s the way it is for an Aspie throughout life…in case you were wondering…

Raul

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Innocence Lost

2014-12-27  Innocence Lost
I see the trees at fall with their sad look for no leaves, which already got to the ground as a big reunion once a year. Then the trees remain standing there with their sad look, waiting for spring to dress them again in vibrant colors that will show another chance to live.

They will be there forever since they last longer than us…anything that lives more than we do is like eternal!

The witnesses of time stand still for more to come, and then the others, the moving ones, will see without eyes or eyes that do not see the passing of time without realizing it.

Time always move on! We are here now, tomorrow who knows.

The moment we take our clothes off in front of the crowd to stand naked there for everyone to see; the moment we step outside our colorful childish mind to enter the grey shaded world of adulthood as a natural state that will impair our senses of reality around, getting us drunk in the moment that will last till the end of our registered time.

Dizziness and life mixed together in a dangerous drink that we all have from some point on.

Then the images of running with the breeze, chasing a butterfly that knows how to play, while a smile takes total possession of a face that doesn’t know about civilization and citizenship. The images of a world that existed as the only reality, yet suddenly disappeared, just to be replaced for a world of numbers, letters and sounds that have to be organized correctly in order to pertain, to be, to have a place.

The colorful reality turned off, put away and forgotten; the grey and mathematical arrangement of shades turned on, to live and find a geometrical place that we can finally, and most of the times erroneously, call home.

Then silently, as time goes by, observe the colors come back one by one, as we settle in the new land to become the colonists of our new life.

Raul

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Merry Christmas

2014-12-25  Merry Christmas

 

Merry Christmas to everyone!!

May you have peace and happiness today and always

Sincerely from my heart

Raul

 

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