Aspie World 10 – Getting High

2013-10-18  Aspie Worl 10 - Getting High

I don’t know if the problem is something wrong with my brain, or if it is part of being an Aspie, but from time to time I simply get high out of nothing.

I always thought it might have been just being tired; then, after I started taking Seredyn to control anxiety I thought that maybe those pills were getting me high some times; but when I realized that some of the times I get high I didn’t take anything and I wasn’t really tired, I started to think that maybe it is the brain falling into a certain “mode” for a moment.

What happens is that some times, especially at work, like without a reason I start getting high like if I had taken some sort of drugs. Everything that moves start to move slowly; the sounds I hear become fused all together; no matter what kind of music is in the radio, even if it is something I normally don’t like, becomes nice and sweet; whatever happens is fine, and I feel so relaxed in my mind while my body feels so comfortable, with a very nice sort of tingling all throughout. Temperature is perfect and clothing doesn’t bother anymore in my skin. I can’t deny I love it!

Obviously I know it is also sort of dangerous; especially when working with machinery; so I pay special attention to everything around and at whatever I’m doing; trying to analyze my movements and the possible consequences out of them. I work and walk slowly, with premeditated movement and verifying the results of those movements, to confirm that the initial intention was achieved without side consequences, like dropping something while trying to grab it.

It is such a wonderful moment out of nothing, that I simply don’t fight it but rather enjoy it for whatever amount of time it might last; which usually is about thirty minutes. After that my senses become normal again; movements around become of the right speed; I can distinguish sounds again and they start to create sensory overload once more, and music not necessarily is of my taste. My body feels the discomfort of fabric rubbing against my skin; temperature becomes higher or lower of what would be comfortable, and people around become human once more! (Sigh).

Now, as I mentioned, it comes out of nothing and without warning, but I embrace it without a fight since it is such a wonderful moment. The only times I can sort of artificially re-create those moments is when being extremely stressed that I need more than a relaxing pill, but rather a chemical punch to my brain to relax it from an over stressing situation.

In those cases, instead of just taking a capsule of Seredyn, I do take a capsule, but also add the content of another capsule at once (I just separate the two halves of a capsule and swallow the content, so instead of extended release I get the whole thing to act at once for a sort of “emergency” relaxation).

It does work great and in about five minutes, from being really stressed with whatever situation, I jump to a state of “not giving a damn”; but still it’s different from the high state I fall into for like no reason.

I can only conclude that probably my brain turns by itself to work in a similar way that’s forced when consuming drugs (which I don’t use), and for as long as it’s enjoyable without dangers I plan to let it happen without fighting it.

Crazy isn’t it?

Raul

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4 Responses to Aspie World 10 – Getting High

  1. Patricia says:

    Not crazy and I am glad that you are very careful about the “high” times and working with machinery. The brain is an interesting system and we are learning so much.

    My daughter used to get too happy particularly after a stress like a test or a tennis match – the next day. We started keeping a journal of moods and times and figured out a pattern. Then we worked with a compounding pharmacist and he put together a capsule just right for her and her weight. She had to adjust if she had too much coffee ( her other drug of choice for her stimulant) but the pharmacist even worked on helping her figure out that system. Now she if off medications – except for coffee and when she has these big driving times at her work, she uses Pringles Potato Chips and grapes to keep her awake.
    Hope you stay safe and that you can figure it out…so you can get more control. Wishing you well
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    Raul Reply:

    Hi Patricia,

    I’m glad to hear that your daughter doesn’t have to take more medications; and hats off to your dedication to help her in those situations.

    So far I feel in control in those situations, so just enjoy it for as long as it last.

    Raul
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  2. Kelvin Kao says:

    I have never heard of something like that! But if your brain works differently from “normal” (statistically normal) people, and getting high is something associated with the state of the brain, I guess it makes sense.

    I was thinking, was this sort of like people asking others to pinch them to make sure they are not in a dream? (Even though I’ve never asked anyone to do that in an actual dream.) You are constantly checking and verifying it…
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    Raul Reply:

    Hi Kelvin,

    To me, feeling like in a dream is more like when extremely tired, beyond the point of yawning and tears.

    This is more like being completely aware and with normal energy, but just feeling in more like an euforic state of feeling good.

    Weird, I know.

    Raul
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