You walk through a room, at the park, in a job place, anywhere, and nobody is there. Instead there are giant TV screens all around, showing people moving, talking, interacting with each other. Those people are absorbed in their world of movement and inter-communication; they don’t see anybody outside their world, outside the TV screen they are in, even if you are standing there, by their side, listening to their words and watching their movements.
You walk around watching the TV screens, like the lone survivor in a planet where the only memory of the past are the images projected by the screens about the living world that once used to be. Showing the people that lived in this planet, and the daily activities they used to have, but no longer exist. A deserted planet with only one inhabitant: you.
But you know is not the way it supposes to be. You know you should be another in one of those screens. Or more precisely, they should be physically around you instead of in one of those screens. Those screens shouldn’t exist!
And while you observe, think and analyze the strange situation, time keeps going by, and the classification given to you by them settles and grows. You’re not moving; you’re not interacting, and even if you try you do things the “wrong” way, so you become classified and archived: “Dumb”.
I remember when I was a child listening to people talking to me, while I was absorbed in fascination watching the characters in the screen talk and move. They talked to me and I didn’t answer. How weird must it be to talk to someone that looks at you and doesn’t answer, even if you repeat your words several times? I can understand if they classified me as dumb.
So you grow up isolated from the people in the screens, from the people in the world. This is their playground and if you want to get included, you must play by their rules of socialization. If you don’t know how to interact, or simply see everything around in a different way, you cannot participate, so you become isolated from the world while living among everybody else.
But at the other hand, it is such an amazing place inside one’s head! While people grow their outside world by interacting with each other, using their inside world as a take off ramp for everyday activities, you grow your inside world and learn to discard the -closed for you- take off ramp of your mind. You grow your inside world leaving the forgotten outside world as an untouchable place that cannot be reached due to your non-working, obsolete appendix in your brain called take off ramp to the outside world.
So the circle of isolation grows more and more as the time goes by. And while your inside world becomes a planet on its own, in the outside you look small and dumb for those that conform the real world.
As time keeps going, you realize the need to interact with the outside world, with the people in the screens, if you want to have a place in this planet. So like an old dog that can learn a couple of simple tricks to impress people around, even if he doesn’t understand what is he doing and why, you learn to answer to the words of the people in the screen when they look at you. You even learn to dare to initiate a conversation with one of them, when you realize you’ve been quiet for too long for “their” comfort, even if you cannot keep up with the conversation you started.
You could be quiet for hours and be happy while immersed in your activity, but with time you have learned that normal people, due to their brains programmed for socialization, require of everyone close to them to say “Hi” at the beginning of the day; talk throughout the day, and say “Bye” at the end of the day; otherwise they feel offended and consider you either selfish or uneducated.
So after several years of trial and error, for brief moments you might even look normal to them, until the exhausting requirements of participation in society betray you and tell everybody around that you are an impostor of a normal human being; that you aren’t normal, that you don’t belong among them.
So quietly you walk away to the vast inside world in your mind that you have built throughout the years. Back to the “normal”, back to the world you know; the world you live in, and where you can have rest, peace and happiness being yourself.