Posted by Raul on September 9, 2010
After spending some time reviewing the stuff I’ve posted so far, it seems to me the categorization used it’s not reflecting the kind of posts in some of them and might lead to confusion, so I’ve decided to add three more categories and reassign some of the posts so far published.
Those categories are: Memories, Fiction and Projections
The first two are self explanatory and for the third one, well…one of the things I love to do is try to fit myself in somebody else’s shoes; not physically but in my mind, so to have a chance to see the world around through somebody else’s eyes and thus experience the feelings and thoughts of that person (It’s like going to the movies without spending money!)
So far I’ve published four posts under that concept in the category “Entertainment” but now it just doesn’t seem to fit the original intention, so after some brainstorming (while not seating in the toilet) I’ve decided to create this new category called “Projections” (most of the brainstorming was about choosing the name! Can you tell?)
Anyway, this new category, together with Fiction will allow you to know I’m not talking about myself but rather I am someone else at that moment, at the same time that it’ll allow me to try to understand my own thoughts and feelings (what a clever old chap I am, right?…RIGHT?…oh well!)
Now, if somebody reading the post happens to be in that situation I’ll be very happy to hear his/her opinion so to evaluate the accuracy of the Projection and improve my procedures. Thank you beforehand for your help and sharing your experience.
So to get started, here is an old one for Projections…hope you like it.
The End Once Again
Why it has to be that way? Why it always starts like if everything clicks to later find so many differences?
Some casual talking with brief locking eyes, little by little getting to know more about each other, feeling the heart beat faster every time a coincidence in preferences arise. Then creating excuses to meet more often, finding ways to be together: a coffee break, lunch, then maybe a movie and dinner in a quiet restaurant.
We found so many coincidences, so many things in common, we thought we found the right person and played our cards, we wanted to be together. After some encounters of great sex and laughing we thought we were made for each other. We made plans together.
But after just a couple of months sharing our lives we started to see the differences. At first little things like the kind of coffee, the way to keep stuff organized, the time of the day to tend the bed. Later bigger things like spending priorities, long term projects. To finally discover all the hidden things never told before; what was expected in bed and never received, what didn’t enjoy but accepted just to comply, so many little and big things that make us look at each other like complete strangers after a fight, after getting all the details, thoughts and feelings hidden that went out in a moment of a heated argument.
Then the decision, the departure, the tears and loneliness; back to the beginning, back to a solitary life, back to be afraid of another relationship, afraid of getting hurt again!
Memories, feelings, loneliness; is it just a cycle that repeat itself over an over again? How many times before finally finding the right one? How many times before knowing that the person at our side is the one we will grow old with? Is it just a matter of time? But how many times?
Back to a gray, flat routine kind of life. No more bright days, no more happy rain, no more laughter for stupid things, no more feeling the heart beating hard!
The end once again!